May 25, 2003

The only baggage you can bring is all that you can't leave behind, and the fly glasses

I am 26 years old. I need to stop drinking like I'm 18, acting like I'm 60 and sometimes 2.
I am not old.
I am young.
I am smart. Smarter than you think I am.
I have a certain flair for the written word, despite what you see here.
If I could focus, I could be a good writer. Maybe even a great writer.
I have no discipline.
Which is why the blog is so scattered.
Which is why my life is so scattered.
I said some shit I needed to say in the last post.
I need to say some more.
I have done a myriad of stupid and bad and mean things in my life.
I have questionable morals sometimes.
I have done drugs.
But, as of right now, I am done, I declare myself clean, new, and a good person.
I am letting go of all the shit I carry around with me that makes my soul black.
I am letting go of the guilt and the harbored thoughts, things I never said, the jealousy, the envy, the fear of not being as good as i want, the fear of pretty much everyone and everything, the things that are over, all that shit.
I am good, I am young, I am new.
And I will be fucking great one day.


Posted by orion at May 25, 2003 05:14 PM | TrackBack